Life's tough... wear a f@*king helmet

So I was up until about 4am this morning and bounced(more like rolled, fell on the floor and sat up) out of bed at 8:30. made the mistake of eating actual food so I am no longer running on nicotine, caffeine and adrenalin. Dummy me. Little unhealthy hint - when you are stressed and running on little sleep - if you have to make it thru the day without a nappy then DO NOT EAT. once your body starts to process a meal you'll be falling asleep sitting up at your desk... Ugly!.

Why the stress you ask? My sister in law is very ill - call the family make arrangements ill and it happened so quickly I still haven't processed it. She's fighting the effects of the chemo and that's what doing it. Not the cancer - the chemo - unbelievable right? You are damned if you do, damned if you don't sometimes. She's in Philly - over an hour away and my Brother is an hour and a half away so I feel very disconnected and useless. I want to help, i want to cook or babysit or drive people or do anything that lessens the burden on them but...

Her kidneys shut down but today they gave her dialysis and it worked so i am hoping that she's used up only another of her 9 cat lives - and she'll bounce back and be up and about. But intellectually i know that may not be the case.

And so i cry... for her and my brother and his wife and the family and the nieces and the grandkid whose 2 and won't remember his g-mom Fu. And then I get angry that I'm crying because i feel like i am giving up on her...

So life's tough... wear a f@cking helmet, with an optional tissue holder attached.

Embrace Indulgence

Just a few thoughts today -
remember to embrace life's simple indulgences... treat yourself as good as you treat your friends with out any guilt. You deserve it! And what's keeping you from being good to yourself?? Linger in bed for a few extra moments, enjoy that feeling of laziness. Treat yourself to your favorite food - even dieters and health conscious readers can afford to indulge themselves to that piece of chocolate or slice of pizza every once in a while. It really won't hurt you...

Play, Play, Play and in case I forgot to tell you ummm... PLAY! Don't be so serious all the time, embrace your inner child... run under a sprinkler, splash thru a puddle, chase a butterfly, giggle and laugh, sing out loud, dance like a fool, spin around in circles,close your eyes and face the breeze.

Get excited about something - don't worry about pretenses and just let go! My God we're a bunch of uptight fools sometimes... Why? What do we have to prove? Why do we care what people think about us? I get excited about birthdays (as we all now) and Christmas and football in a few weeks and hell, even a good tv show or a fabulous book! When did we lose that childish exuberance? get it back... it's what keeps us young!

Laugh out loud... Live out loud -I use to try to tone down my laugh because it's so loud and boisterous... (hell , I'm loud and boisterous even when I'm not laughing...LOL I admit it) But then I realized that I wasn't laughing as much any more and realized what a waste of precious moments that was ... Now.... I laugh when I want to, and I don't hold it back at all - and it feels GORGEOUS!

So I dare you to cut and paste the line below and hang it on your computer. Use it to remind yourself as you sit there day after day that you need to lighten up, and enjoy your life - we only take this ride once - throw up your hands and enjoy every moment of it!

Embrace indulgence~Play, Play, Play~Get EXCITED~Laugh out LOUD~Love your life!!! ~Stacey

Take a deep breath... you're home now.

So finally i've joined the literary world of blogging. Something i've been doing for years via e-mail but to only a limited few. I've fallen out of that habit and feel the difference in my psyche. Kind of like the ache i feel in my soul when i stay away from the ocean for too long. The positivity is waning, the attitude is turning sour and the life appreciation is not what it should be. And so i blog.

So many others telling the world of their life and sometimes I think i read them all. But lately i've been leaning towards the positive ones. The Ross "the intern" Mathews of the blog world... and it feels good. While we can always use some snarkiness in our lives... the smiles are longer lasting. (but the snarkiness is fun see dlisted.com or crazydaysandnights on blogspot, and you'll get it)

I won't be able to tie down what exactly I will write about. So I will say this blog will be about a little of everything. Maybe when I write enough I will stop procrastinating and start that damn book i've been putting off. In the mean time i welcome your thoughts, your comments, your bitching.

Come along on the adventure... I welcome the company. Just buckle up and pee before we leave.